This may seem like a repeat of my other blog, but it's the "unabridged" version of my last entry! :) Stick it out and enjoy if you have the time, but know that it gets into a lot of detail. ;)
You know how people say, "It was truly a weekend to remember..."?
Well, we had a weekend to remember. Really. In fact, I don't think Justin and I will ever forget it.
We spent the weekend in the mountains of Sacramento, New Mexico. Yes, there is a Sacramento, New Mexico. It is small. But it is beautiful.
We traveled the five hour journey to Sacramento for a couples retreat through our church, and, as I had mentioned in a previous entry, we were leading worship with some dear friends of ours, Jay and Amy Lewis.
It was a blessing to get to lead worship in such a beautiful place. And, because it was a couples retreat, we really felt like we were "retreating" together.
We got there early to practice on Thursday, and ate lunch with a wonderful group of leaders and friends. It was very laid back. We ate at a cute little place called "Big Daddy's Diner," (Yes, it is called Big Daddy's) in Cloudcroft, NM. Really good food and good service.
Once in July of this past summer, and then once in September. The first time was so clear I was almost positive it was the Lord, but COULD not believe it. I wanted to, but I felt like it was silly that I knew I'd heard what I'd heard!
Here is my journal entry from that night that I have been saving for this moment.
Dated July 3rd, 2014
"He who calls you is faithful.
Praying about the future tonight and I felt like the Lord gave me a word...I don't plan to forget anytime soon.
'He is coming.'
Not sure whether this is what I would like it to be, but I have a feeling it is. As I was praying I began to see rainbows - remember all the rainbows I've seen lately. We have had rain - and with it has come rainbows. And this morning our pastor said not to forget - 'He is faithful.'
Well, after praying about the future tonight, and sharing some deep desires of my heart, I felt like the Lord was reminding me of all the times in my life when I have prayed specifically for what I wanted - some of these very big things - my husband (specific qualities), my first baby boy (he is all I prayed for and more), my baby girl (same thing - even felt like the Lord had told me she was a girl before we found out she was). So, I was thanking the Lord for his faithfulness tonight in prayer when I felt like he gave me the new word, 'He is coming.'
Well, I have been praying for quite some time about a new little one. Wondering (and hoping!) if this might be what I am thinking it might be.
And then, when I opened the word tonight, it was on Hebrews 11, the faith chapter. Think the Lord is speaking to me about faith?!
Haha.
He is good.
All the time!!"
Of course, the only test of prophecy is whether it comes true. Part of this has, but part of it hasn't. We shall see. I have ideas of what I want this baby's name to be, and it's a boy's name...! We shall see.
Okay, the other one I didn't write down, but it was just a very specific voice. You know, one of those times you are just really honest and crying in prayer, and you feel very strongly that you actually waited long enough to think you have heard him speak back? Yes, one of those times.
I was outside watching the stars and enjoying just praying to the Lord and I was really talking to him of course about a baby, because that's what I always talk to him about these days. No, I'm not persistent! Lol.
But anyway, I had been telling him about all the upcoming trips we had, and that I really wanted a sweet baby to come along, despite the fact that I might have morning sickness during all these trips. And he KNOWS how much I hate being nauseated. Ha!
And I really felt like he was seriously ASKING me, "Amber, do you really want this baby now? I can give it to you now."
And then I heard October or November.
Seriously.
That was when I started planning how I would share during the retreat about the new baby.
God is faithful, ya'll.
We have done it all, too. By that, I mean, we have decided to try and wait to have children, and we have decided to try.
About a year ago, I felt like he was really telling me to wait.
I HATED that idea, but I gave the whole desire of having another one to him completely, and we tried to avoid getting pregnant, which was exactly the opposite of what I really wanted. But for months, I cried about it during prayer, but I gave it to Him, and knew it was in his hands.
Then, in July of this year, I felt him saying it was alright to start trying again.
SO...I tried it all. The ovulation strips, the basal body temperature thermometer. The strips said I wasn't ovulating after taking them for two months.
The first thermometer I bought didn't even work.
And one month went by.
Then two...
Then three...
Then four...
And I kept remembering the times during the last year that we had "slipped" at the "right" time of month, and nothing had happened.
Discouragement set in.
A few more months went by.
And it always seemed that when I was reading the Psalms, I would fall across the ones about your children being olive shoots around your table. Doesn't that always happen when you are wanting something? You just "come across" the subject in the bible. No...I was probably searching for it. In fact, I'm pretty sure I was. And the story of Abraham and Sarah. I couldn't get it out of my head.
And now we are here.
And I just keep remembering hearing God say, "It's in my hands. Don't worry. I got this."
Oh yes.
He did.
I'm so glad for new beginnings. I'm so glad for unexpected blessings.
Truly did not expect to have such an amazing weekend!!!
We have an indescribable God.
Room 103.
Psalm 128
Blessed are all who fear the Lord, who walk in his ways.
You will eat the fruit of your labor; blessings and prosperity will be yours.
Your wife will be like a fruitful vine within your house; your sons will be like olive shoots around your table. Thus is the man blessed who fears the Lord.
May the Lord bless you from Zion all the days of your life;
may you see the prosperity of Jerusalem, and may you live to see your children's children.
Peace be upon Israel.